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Intro
02:32
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Sing to me
Show me how you’d sound if no one else could hear you
I could float forever on your melodies
Share with me
Pieces of your soul you’d never shared before we met
Let’s just lay here, bathed in light
Oh, heard a warning last night
From the cars that passed by
They say I should run away from you
But I have faith in us
I have faith in love
And right now, that’s enough
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Sweet!
03:06
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Where did you come from baby?
And how did you end up here?
Could you become my baby
Before you disappear?
I’m having dreams of you and me
Intertwined like destiny
Can’t seem to get enough
Just a spoonful of you, and it goes down easy
And I’ve been trying to play it cool
But my mind’s been overruled
Glad I lived just long enough to get with you
You would taste so fine on the tip of my tongue
Thinking of your lips has got me high-strung
Ain’t just a snack, boy, you’re more like a treat
My babe, you’re so damn sweet
Soft like a caramel candy
I need a second piece
It’s the way you're looking, baby
I'm hooked, to say the least
Every time that our hands touch
I get a crazy sugar rush
Actin all insane
Cause it feels like you freeze my brain, like flavored slush
When you smile, I can't speak
With just one look, my knees are weak
All these feelings, so brand new
Brand new to me
I tried to resist, but I’m bowing defeat
Oh babe... you’re so damn sweet
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Alarm goes off, thank god it’s Friday, thank god I’m in your bed
If I didn’t have to go to class, I’d stay here until I’m dead
Birds are singing out your window and I’ll see them pretty soon
But for now, let’s just keep kissing in our blanket cocoon
Feel the sunlight my cheek, it warms me as it hits
Who’d have thought I'd ever get a chance to feel like this?
And my heart is kind of racing
And I’m worried you can tell
Because you make it look so easy, and it makes me want to yell
I wish we could remain here till the skin falls off our lips
Just a pair of sappy skeletons with roses through our hips
And our teeth would click together, but we wouldn’t really care
Anyone would get the picture if they saw us lying there
The birds continue singing, and the insects join on thirds
While wind blows through the window, whispering soft and lovely words
While the garden overgrows, and the vines creep through the vent
Have you ever seen another pile of bones look more content?
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4. |
Unknown Number
07:08
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Tell me that you love me before I lose my fucking mind
I’ve been searching for forever, but it’s just so hard to find
Drag your finger down my chest, like a scalpel through my breastbone to my core
Meet me on a sunday, we can sit and watch the moon
I know spring is getting shorter, and we’ll both be leaving soon
But these glasses that we’re clinking, will they stop the ship from sinking into the deep?
Why don’t you answer my calls anymore?
I just wanna tell you ‘good morning’
You’ve never looked so apathetic
I’ve always thought you were worth fighting for
But you’ve waved a white flag
Leaving me, out at sea, with just grief and nobody to connect with
I’ve been staring at the pictures people took of you and me
And I’m wondering what you’re thinking in the moments that I see
Did you know that, from the start, we were built to grow apart?
I guess you did
One day I’ll be an unknown number
Call you on your broken phone
You won’t answer, but I hope it lets you know you’re not alone
And you’ll get that sinking feeling, but by now you’ve finished healing, so why look back?
Caught in a tidal wave, you were the one
With a sideways smile and a life vest
Liquor can make you say such charming things
I’ll live in darkness if you aren’t the sun,
Don’t let me fall back into me, my beliefs, and all my silly little worries
Cause baby, when the sun sets, I see…
A film reel
Every little detail
Muscles in your face that didn't used to move that way
I still feel
Every single feeling
I cling to your embrace
You’re the first to break away every time
Take me back to April, when the trees began to bloom
They said “love is in the air,” and I guess we felt its fumes
As we’re walking out your door
And you leave me wanting more than what I have
We could last forever in the blissful summer sun
But the nighttime’s when I sense that we will soon become undone
Won’t you grab my waist and kiss me?
Taste the double shot of whiskey on your tongue
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Valentine's Day
07:01
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Draggin’ my blue canvas shoes cross the floor
Rose petals stuck to the soles
You were supposed to be all impressed by them
But it’s only me that walks through the door
Take out my rage on the heart shaped balloon
Just one, there would’ve been two...
But I didn’t have enough cash after spending
All of my dollars on presents for you
I know that you said you don’t need a big display
But baby, you know how excited I get about holidays...
Oh I, I wouldn't say I’ve been doing okay
Sitting alone trying to numb the pain
And you knew that I was naive, wore my heart on my sleeve
I can still feel your last kiss on my cheek
It burns like a brand
Don’t understand
How you arrived at the choice that you made
So I sit here and wait, but you’ve made me afraid
Will I always be lonely on Valentine's Day?
Pick up my phone cause it’s something to do
Suddenly I’m cut in two
In all the confusion, I must’ve forgot
That the background would still be that photo of you
Stumble and fall, cause I’m two glasses deep
Since I bought it, I might as well drink
I don’t like red, but it went well with dinner
And you’ve got a very particular palate
I know that you said it’s got nothing to do with me
But watching you fall out of love would hurt less than watching you leave
When I know you still love me
[chorus]
Maybe I just cared too much
Please forgive my passion for this kind of stuff, it’s just
Love feels like something I’ll only do once
I’d try to run, but I’m trapped in this city
With sickening memories attached to it
Might as well label this block on a map with your last name
I am powerless
I am helpless
I am giving up
This song is done
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They told me everything ends
I had to believe them to keep from losing my mind
But earth’s overheating and lately I’m feeling
I might be out of time
And the only one who could talk me down from that apocalyptic ledge was you
If our love could last as long as the plastic in the ocean
I’d never need to find someone new
Well you call me up, you say goodbye
Well we had a good run, and we gave it a try
And though we said it had to end,
Now is now and that was then
Just look outside, the trees are on fire
I’m at a loss for words
Yeah I guess it’s the end of the world, so do you wanna get back together?
I’m wandering ‘round this hollow town
Watching the spaces we created burning to the ground
Now there’s no doubt, this life post-you is here to stay
Still sat here wondering if you feel the same way
And I’ve been trying not admit it, but I miss you
But you’re not picking up your phone
So I'll just have to die alone! (woo!)
Because…
[chorus]
Well you call me up to say goodbye
And you never wanna see me till the day you die
I think that nothing has to end,
We just lose ourselves to selfishness
I hit you up, cause the world’s on fire
and I think its getting worse
Yeah I guess it’s the end of the world…
So do you wanna get back together?
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7. |
Interlude
01:14
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Loneliness and heartbreak box you in and bare their teeth
You’re stood up, but someone pulls the rug from underneath
All the walls around you, they crumble and they fall
One support beam fails, suddenly you lose them all
Give up on the anger, and stop fighting, cause you’ll lose
Hopelessness is spreading through your heart like it’s a bruise
At this point, it’s hard to tell what's keeping you alive
If that thought is frightening, get into your car and drive…
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8. |
Concrete
03:52
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I hadn’t seen your house
Since that day, I can’t drive down your street
But the nav said this way’s fastest,
So it seems the fates are pissed
Do you remember when they poured the fresh cement out on the sidewalk?
We pressed in our hands, searching for permanence
Here comes that feeling
Sky’s a starry ceiling
As Taylor questions traffic lights
And Lucy works the night shift
I wish I could feel real again
Maybe start to heal again
It’s hard to move on with you still pressing on my heart
I know I’m only chasing a chance, but I’d still ask you to dance if you’d have me
I’d kill for a singular glance, but looking into your eyes is a luxury
Strange how my wish used to be
Move to California, seal my name in the concrete
It’s not out of the question, but the prospect just seems hollow
Why would I go anywhere if I know you won’t follow?
Maybe I’m just wistful, but our story isn’t done
There’s no way that I could feel this way about just anyone
You know that it’s been hard on me
Watching you leave, meanwhile I’m left here in a tattered dress
A former bride-to-be
I know you said that we shouldn’t try, but now I’m standing outside your apartment
I swear that I’m not wasted or high, I only want to find out how your heart’s been
Been stumbling round this city for hours, it’s like you’re my light in the darkness
I’m trying not to show it, but I’ve become a vagabond chasing catharsis
I've packed my love away
Wrote your name on boxes in black pen
On the off chance you decide that you want to meet again
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9. |
Mardyke Walk
04:56
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I still hear the tiptoe of the river
Sneaking through the vibrant blues and greens
No clouds in the sky over Mardyke
Watching all the rooftops in a soft light
I see my reflection on the ceiling
The outline of my body through the sheets
But all that I can focus on is how you’re not beside me
Wish I could escape somewhere no one else could find me
Would you find me?
I don’t know what I can do
What else is there to do?
How do you keep going when the wind’s knocked out of you?
Have I hit rock bottom?
Is this all there is?
Blackout in the hotel all alone
Staring at your picture on my phone
Strike a match, light a candle, I watch the fire dancing
As it casts unfriendly shadows on the walls
They point and laugh at me,
A lonely little nobody
I’ve never felt more lost
I look in the mirror and I see a human being
I can touch my face and wave my hands around
I can see my eyes, see my nose, see my body
I am real, I am real, I am real
(I am real, I am real, I am real, I am real…)
I went out to try and find any kind of feeling
Found it as I laid there in the street
That was when I realized there was beauty all around
Hadn’t really noticed all the colors and the sounds
Walking back to Mardyke, I see through different eyes
They still can’t meet your gaze, but at least this time they tried
Maybe in a while I’ll find the strength to say
That it’s cool, I’ve got me, I’m okay
I still wonder how you are
Please tell me all your thoughts
Even though we probably shouldn't speak
Yes my heart’s still hurting
Don’t think I’ll be okay
But at least I woke up today
At least I woke up today
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10. |
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Are you thinking about me as much as I think you must be?
Oh well, I guess I’ll see you in hell
Or maybe next winter
I take a page from you often
We still have something in common
We both fell out of love... with me
I’m so sick of my shit since you left
I’ve started ignoring myself
I don’t think anything helps
When will I move on?
I’ve been taking the longer way home
And spending less time on my phone
Can’t find my way on my own
I’ll never move on
Trying to cope ain’t going well
My body’s here, my brain’s in hell
If nothing else, this time has proved
If I were you, I’d leave me too
I think it’s over between me and myself
Cause I don’t like the way I act now,
I never seem to have my back now, so
I think it’s finished between myself and I
Cause now I see me through your eyes
And now I know why you said goodbye
Feels like I’m just the ghost of these streets
Lost any and all sense of me
Thought we were on the same team
Now I’m trying to move on
Despite not seeing you as often
We still have something in common
You’re the most important thing in both of our shitty lives
So I’ll talk my shit
And clench my fist, but…
Don’t think I’m getting over this...
I think it’s over between me and myself
Cause I don’t like the way I act now,
I never seem to have my back now, so
I think it’s finished between myself and I
Cause now I see me through your eyes
And now I know
Now I know why you said goodbye
Lately I’ve been noticing
In everything I do
There’s part of it that’s comparable to something you went through
I can hear God laughing, watching
As I crawl through this
Can’t even keep my liquor down
I just taste your kiss
I’m trying to be better,
Since we can’t set things right
I’m trying to remember that you’re not the only light
But how can I forget you
When we’re living the same life?
I’ve gotta end things with the you that lives inside my mind
I take a page from you often
We still have something in common
We both fell out of love with me
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11. |
Finale
13:30
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Sunlight through the trees is casting shadows on my face
On the way to peace, found out I don’t mind the shade
Birds are singing softly, I pause as they lament
Something sounds familiar in their quiet sentiment
It took too long for me to realize
Some things just happen, and you don’t get a choice
Now I’ve got space to finally recognize
I had to suffer to discover my voice
And now I understand
Though it might be out of my hands
I can find the light
I will find the light again
Lately it’s been nice outside so I’ve been taking walks
Whisper to the trees and sky, private little talks
I took their advice, I found solace up above
Now the sun is more a lover than he ever was
There is no need for me to think about
What might’ve happened if we pushed back the end
Better to know that, without any doubt
I needed to know you as a lover and a friend
The better times are further than they’ve ever seemed to be
But even if it takes the whole year for me to finally find some light
I will find the light again
You might say I’m healing if I wasn’t concealing
All of this pain that I’ve felt
As much as I want you to take it all back
I’m playing the cards I’ve been dealt
Because I’m sick of living in the past
so even if the feeling doesn’t last...
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